an open letter to the people of my first semester
Where do I start.
I couldn't be anymore thankful for you all.
It's crazy how the right people can come into your life when you need it most. I hated high school. Sure, there were moments that were great but honestly I went through so much shit those few years that, even being the optimist that I am, I can't say it was a positive experience. Every year was a constant battle with myself. I never realized how toxic that environment that was until I got out of it, and I am so glad I did.
My whole life has consisted of my running from one place to another, never being in one place for more than a few years. I have always had to learn how to make friends quickly, but this time it was different.
It's crazy how fast you can bond with people from around the country, and even the world when they are your people.
The second I toured Pace, I knew that this was my school. I knew from the community that was here even from spending a few hours here. Sophomore year Kailee cried walking out of the doors after that tour because I had never wanted anything more than to just fast forward the next years until it was time to come here. And now Freshman year in college Kailee is crying in her bed on the 7th floor of Marias Tower because this experience is more than I could ever imagine (you all know i'm emotional this shouldn't be shocking to any of you lol).
I don't know what I would I would do without each and every one of you.
To Floor 7: wow...you guys....are a lot....but I wouldn't change you for the world. I don't know what I would have done if I didn't have you guys the first few weeks of school. You guys were so welcoming and accepting. I could be myself with you. We were automatic best friends and I still have so much respect for every single one of you. It's so comforting to know that if I need anything you guys will be there for me. I can't even begin to think about all the times you have made me smile when I needed it most. I wouldn't want to live with any other people in the world. We made it through finals, now get some rest and pet some pups and I can't wait to see you all in January, I'm going to miss you SO much.
To Hannah: I have never loved anyone as much as I love you. I can't imagine coming into my room to see anyone else sleeping in my bed or stealing my fruit snacks. You mean the world to me and inspire me endlessly. You put so much passion into things, whether it be big or small. I learn something new form you every day. I can't believe I have only known you for a few months because our friendship is inseparable already. What can I say... we really are the power couple of Maria's Tower. So happy I get to take on New York City with you, I wouldn't want to become friends with Jimmy Fallon with anyone else. I'll wait in any line with you any day. I love you so much, you're going to do great things in the world.
To Steph: buddy. I have no clue what I would do if you weren't in my life. From our 2am chats in your room to cutting out random sheets of paper for you, you have created the most amazing place to live. You are so talented in literally everything you do and I am so happy I get to know you. You know how much I love you so this is just a little reminder. You are the easiest person to talk to and I wouldn't want any other person to hear me screaming the lyrics to High School Musical from Hannah's room. You have helped me through so much and you've made this semester the best it could be. Can't wait to be your personal photographer whenever you need it.
To my old roommate: I hope you are doing well, you deserve nothing but the best. We are the same person in so many ways its kind of scary sometimes. You are so talented and are going to accomplish so many things in your life. I miss you, our late night picnics and our brushing teeth together before our daily rounds, all the memories we created. I hope you know I am always here for you and you're always welcome back. Us Eller's have to stay together, through anything and everything.
To my new roommate: wow. I am so lucky to have you as a roommate but more importantly, as a friend. Your laugh is electrifying and it makes me so happy. You are literally one of the coolest people I know. I can't wait to see all you accomplish in school and in life in general, and I will ALWAYS be your number one supporter. I can't wait to see you find your place in the world and I never ever want you to stop dancing, you can accomplish so much with it. Thanks for putting up with me everyday.
To Arden and Mallory: My first friends. You guys bring me so much joy every day. I have never met anyone in my life who make me laugh so hard as you guys do. Mallory, thanks for being the ONLY person who continued to talk to me after orientation, I am so lucky to be able to go on adventures with you and share our love for dogs together. Arden, I'm not sure how you are not famous yet, whether it be for dancing or just being a goofball, I can't wait to see you go far. You guys are literally the worlds best roommates and I can't wait to crash with you guys in the years to come. Thanks for introducing me to the most random things. I love you guys.
To Janet: There's no one else I would want to almost share a birthday with. You make me laugh so hard it's not even funny. You have one of the best personalities I have ever met before. You're not afraid to be yourself and it really inspires me. Here's to hoping we actually get pictures with each other next semester.
To Tamara & Tora & Sammy: It's crazy how much you guys mean to me. It was amazing to be able to know some people here before I moved here. There was so much comfort in knowing I have you guys around to be there for me any time of the day. I can't wait for us to #rise when Alessia comes back here. Thanks for everything, you guys know me better than I know myself sometimes. Wouldn't have been able to be who I am without you guys.
To New York City: You're exhausting. Mixed with the raw emotion of every individual to the same street performers that I can hear every day with my window is open, you are a lot. It's overwhelming at times. Sometimes it's hard to see all these successful people pass by you when you are literally nothing. BUT, you inspire me every day. Every single person on the street who walks past me inspires me. There's emotion here. There's passion. It's real here. You are terrifying at times. I have everything I have ever wanted at my fingertips, and one of these days I will accomplish the success that I see in everyone else. You have brought me so many opportunities already, I can't wait for whats to come.
Here's to all the memories that I have created in these short few months, and here's to the thousands more to come.
This place has become my happy place. I want everyone to know that it is going to be SO hard for me to go home after meeting you all, which is something I am really grateful for. I am so happy I have finally found a place that makes me as happy as this place does.
Second Semester, I'm ready for you.